It seems that my "silent period", when I wasn't officially writing, was not as silent as I thought. I keep finding documents scrawled in longhand. I was working very hard to get my head straight and figure out my priorities. These observations were probably written a year ago.
If I feel trapped and helpless, I will get depressed.
If I believe my choices are meaningless, I will get depressed.
If I believe that the desires of others are more important than my own, I will get depressed.
If I feel worthless, I will get depressed.
If pleasure and empowerment are defined by controlling others, I will get depressed.
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Freedom for myself and others is the soil in which love can grow.
Giving is not a trap unless there is a hidden agenda.
Doing what I want conserves my energy by eliminating inner conflict.
Self-improvement has no intrinsic merit. I don't have to climb to the very top of the mountain to enjoy the view.